moiety

oh, with these bloodless lips that ache had parched
I stole a sip of love from dreamy thought
then flew my life beyond the gothic arch
to find my way to whom I always sought
and there beneath the bright piercings of light
we made a haven no one else had known
she and I, my sweet Bijou, each night
while intimate and secretly alone
but when that sad day came for her to go
I couldn't bear the thought, I couldn't leave
I held against the coldest winds, I know
for everything I always will believe
the way I feel will never be in vain
she let my soul taste moiety again

Within

my soul is dying for what we were, love

and when i think of you my tears cut loose
i wanted to be who you would think of
while with whoever your heart would seduce
remember me for all i meant to you
and i will do the same with every day
although the nights are hard i might get through
if only i could know you'll be okay
it hurts to know we said our sweet goodbyes
for one more chance at being free of this
but i can't handle it, my heart, it cries
i want more to be yours in dreamy bliss
we'll never know the way we could have been
and so i die a little more within

No Need For Tears

 oh, do you cry for all we cannot be
when you're alone at night beneath the stars
there are no need for tears if you can see
i think of you and wonder where you are
the distance that divides our very souls
seems so much further every day, i've learned
that i could never save or make you whole
though no one knows how much i've often yearned
my heart still quarrels with each time i try
to fight the way i feel for you, my dear
and let me tell you how i cry, i cry
to have you in my arms, to have you near
but we can never be, that much is true
and i know that your heart can feel it too

fragmented

when dreams bequeath their light i often die
how overwhelming it can seem to me
as passion brims from where i cry, i cry
the words i write to ever, ever be
fragmented here for you forevermore
they're more than merest beauty, can you see?
it's you who has remained as dreams i pour
beneath the veil of this old willow tree
and yearningly i paint my love for you
with hope that i could make you like the sea
for i swear i have seen sweet heaven hue
deep in your pretty eyes eternally
i wail in hope that you can hear my heart
it bleeds for you when my soul falls apart

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amaranth

how could it be that i have always thought

your fairness of no real distinctive use

to how i dreamed you were till my soul wrought

for me another view that would seduce

you're sweeter than i once had ill-perceived

and must apologize for saying so

you never made me feel less but believed

in all i never knew of me, although

i cherished you deep in the dark, my dear

there hadn't been a moment i would think

you kept me to preoccupy my fear

with all those urges which caused me to sink

beneath the tears that brought the Seven Seas

right at my door, you only meant to please

haunted

i often dwell; oh, how i dwell on death

when i was born my mother's callous grasp

denied my soul as though my very breath

could have been my first and final gasp

although denied, my unfed fantasies

which wanted me from the first day i lived

had failed to urge my wailing self to cease

and now i'm so afraid of all you'll give

see. i was never one to have control

and think i'm so pathetic for my heart

i wish you knew how much i feel unwhole

but i'll just sit right here and compose art

do you ever think like i do, love

is death the only thing you can think of?

sheathe

no matter what my dreams may be to thee
it is a many splendored thing to me
a dream where i could be forevermore
the one whose eyes you achingly adore
for all i truly know within my heart
is that to hold this in i fall apart
i dream, i yearn to die, i die, i die
i bid you well and then you say goodbye
and yes, you are the passion in my soul
the very 'me' i pour out so un-whole
from where i know my essence lights the way
to where my words could be the words you pray
you are my fire, you will remain, you'll breathe
as all the love i urge myself to sheathe